well, here's week three...
I did go out 5 days of the week, and did try to extend friendly camaraderie to all who I crossed paths with. However, people seem to be even more reclusive than I am, which is considerable. It's somewhat relieving yet frustrating to realize that everyone is just about as socially awkward when it comes down to it. But then again, humans never seem to have been very friendly to one another. Funny how we managed to build a civilization through all that backstabbing and whatnot... I can't decide if humanity is the smartest or dumbest species on the planet.
There is excellent evidence for both.
Btw, just wanted to give a shout out to Nicola Tesla: it seems that Thomas Edison stole most of his inventions and just beat him to the patent office.
On that happy note, I think it's high time we all give ourselves a change in perspective. We tend to be very opinionated and most of us think we know what we want, but we don't seem to go about it the right way. Things like thinking affirmatively (such as "I hope it's sunny" instead of "I hope it doesn't rain" can, if nothing else, have an immense impact on our psyche.
So, since I have overcome my fear of reaching out to people, somewhat, I will continue to exercise this new social muscle as well as thinking is an affirming manner. Let's see how it plays out :)
Sorry I am not saying much today. Was a fairly uneventful week. But soon I am getting two courses from the Great Courses (I think that's what they are called): Astronomy and Philosophy. Really excited for them. And just like that I am in a good mood and ready to check out some funnyjunk.com.... the first time I visited that site I saw a mutilated hand.... it's diverse in its content.
Until next time friends.
D
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Wow huge discrepancies... Aka Week 2!
So, it has been over a year since my last post. To be honest, it was disillusion, depression, and a plethora of other factors that kept me from writing this. Words are truly inadequate for depicting experience, and all they tell are open to interpretation and rarely perform justice, so I will refrain from life summary.
Anyways, needless to say I have already fallen out of the habit of scaring myself. That isn't to say i haven't matured over the past year. I can now look people in the eye without feeling like a volcano of bile (ha, my writing may hopefully improve as we progress) but I am still self-confined to spending the majority of my day in front of the computer, watching movies and looking at funny posts.
You come to a point where thing stop scaring you and eventually just end up frustrating and exhausting. I have had plenty of time to philosophize (I have done little else, just streamlined thoughts endlessly it seems) and it is only a matter of time before everyone wakes up to the truth.
I was talking with my brother earlier today, and he proclaimed that the competitive corporation formula was the way of the world, and the most efficient at that. This is simply because this is all he has been taught. But philosophers like to question everything, and I like to think there's a little philosopher in us all.
Has not cooperation proven to be more effective than fear and cut-throat tactics? Instead of collapsing the structure which you build yourself upon (other people), working together refines the foundations and strengthens the whole. Holistic perspective is the next step in psychological evolution, and we are getting there, at our own pace.
Apologies for that digression (I love that word...)
My goal for this week is to go out every day. I used to do so in the hopes of having some human contact, but after a while of everyone refusing to open up or even respond to my greetings, I had lost hope. But hope, I have come to know, I perhaps the most persistent feeling. You can bury it under two thousand tons of pain and self-hatred, but it still lingers, still presses you to turn yourself around, to keep fighting, even if it's just a sputtering ember. Just realizing it's there and embracing it can return it into an inferno.
So keep reaching out to one another friends. Part of overcoming fear is extending a hand to help others do the same. Maybe one day we can live in a world without suspicion, and only pure love, even for someone you just met. Maybe that's the utopia so many religions promise. I would care to find out.
Until next time,
Namaste, P&L
D
Anyways, needless to say I have already fallen out of the habit of scaring myself. That isn't to say i haven't matured over the past year. I can now look people in the eye without feeling like a volcano of bile (ha, my writing may hopefully improve as we progress) but I am still self-confined to spending the majority of my day in front of the computer, watching movies and looking at funny posts.
You come to a point where thing stop scaring you and eventually just end up frustrating and exhausting. I have had plenty of time to philosophize (I have done little else, just streamlined thoughts endlessly it seems) and it is only a matter of time before everyone wakes up to the truth.
I was talking with my brother earlier today, and he proclaimed that the competitive corporation formula was the way of the world, and the most efficient at that. This is simply because this is all he has been taught. But philosophers like to question everything, and I like to think there's a little philosopher in us all.
Has not cooperation proven to be more effective than fear and cut-throat tactics? Instead of collapsing the structure which you build yourself upon (other people), working together refines the foundations and strengthens the whole. Holistic perspective is the next step in psychological evolution, and we are getting there, at our own pace.
Apologies for that digression (I love that word...)
My goal for this week is to go out every day. I used to do so in the hopes of having some human contact, but after a while of everyone refusing to open up or even respond to my greetings, I had lost hope. But hope, I have come to know, I perhaps the most persistent feeling. You can bury it under two thousand tons of pain and self-hatred, but it still lingers, still presses you to turn yourself around, to keep fighting, even if it's just a sputtering ember. Just realizing it's there and embracing it can return it into an inferno.
So keep reaching out to one another friends. Part of overcoming fear is extending a hand to help others do the same. Maybe one day we can live in a world without suspicion, and only pure love, even for someone you just met. Maybe that's the utopia so many religions promise. I would care to find out.
Until next time,
Namaste, P&L
D
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Well let's see... Week one....
A problem with doing this so often is that you really have to start challenging yourself once you get over your basic fears. A way to do this is to delve into experiences and emotions you may not have realized you had. Another way is to approach the unknown. The basic method I am going to start incorporating into my life will be a more physical trial however: I am going to see how long I can last with minimal sleep (so far 3 days and counting) and minimal food intake. However, I will be maintaining water intake in order to ensure the avoidance of kidney failure and take a multivitamin to avoid nutritional deprivation. Also, I am going to exercise daily (and nightly..?), using exercise developed to train U.S. Special forces (yes I have a book like that, by Mark de Lisle, ex-Navy SEAL, very good book, highly recommended). I figure that there are men out there who view this as just another part of their job (Army Rangers are notorious for stretching far beyond most other humans' endurances, emotionally, and physically, with sometimes less than a meal a day).
So... here we go. I'll be starting a new post every week, so put what you did each day this week (or just one thing a week if you're still progressing to this point), and discuss what new people or people who need a little inspiration (I'm sure I will need some at some point) could do to improve themselves overall as a human being. P&L
D
So... here we go. I'll be starting a new post every week, so put what you did each day this week (or just one thing a week if you're still progressing to this point), and discuss what new people or people who need a little inspiration (I'm sure I will need some at some point) could do to improve themselves overall as a human being. P&L
D
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Viva Votre Revolution
Dear Constituents,
My name is David Rauenzahn. The point of this blog is simple. Grow, as a person, by conquering your fear. I have always lived my life cognizant of what I am most afraid of: not living, but surviving. Taking this life for granted is a travesty many of us abide by, unintentionally, if nothing else, for our reptilian brain only reacts as such. This is known as the Fight or Flight reaction. What if you could eventually become a person who faces their fear on a regular basis, not because you want to face that fear per se, but more that you want to achieve something for yourself, something only you can give yourself by triumphing over... you.
Comrades, think of this as a revolution of the self in reaction to a life that simply feels that it is not worth living sometimes. It feels as if death to the soul to become so empty and devoid of the beauties life has to offer. Imagine: taking your dreams by storm. Having the courage to face your fear, and never regret again. Loves lost would be forever found, opportunities never lost, no stone left unturned. That is how I will live. And I want you all to join me; got anything better to do?
Let's start of slow. You have to walk before you can run right? But you need just enough incentive, intesity, and frequency in order to make it effective, what you might call flexing your mind in order to create a paradigm shift, in order to change your perspective on life, and life itself. Start off by doing something once a week that scares the living shit out of you, whether it's asking that girl to dance, finally working up the courage to tell that friend that she is a beautiful person, one you cannot live without, or just seizing the day's adventure and seeing where it might take you. A similar concept to this is the acclaimed "Yes-man" technique portrayed by Jim Carrey's character in the movie of the same name.
Life is waiting to be lived my friends. Just have the courage to live it, and the confidence in a new day, a confidence in yourself to make your dreams your reality.
Never give up, never surrender.
Have the imagination to dream, and the strength of will to realize you are your own limits, you can be whomever, wherever, whatever you want, if only you take life by the horns.
I can't wait to hear your adventures. This is a support group if nothing else. We are a network of people who simply want the most in life, and at first, it may not be easy; it wasn't easy for me. I hit the wall time and time again. Eventually, I became so obsessed with it, I drove myself literally to insanity, and ended up in a mental institution. The root? My dissatisfaction with life. I could not bring myself to accept how pitiful life was, that there wasn't more to my life, that I wasn't being all I could be. I was hopeless, and even tried commiting suicide several times. I had no one to turn to because no one would understand. I honestly felt like I had lost my mind, and I was lost. End of story.
I don't know how, but I made it past that wall, only to realize that I was the one,\ who had set the bricks and mortar of my "wall" to begin with. I realized it was I who was making the choice not to live life, but instead play it safe, and never take chances. Never allowing self belief to enter my life, never feeling strong enough to take a leap of faith, if you will. Realize your dream, see your opportunity, make it a reality. Simple enough.
This is where this blog comes into play. I created this so anyone who feels they aren't getting what they want out of life (and I will admit, not everyone will go to some of the extreme measures other's will, but it can help them too; my best friend is an avid practice of this and, with a little more help and expination, I think he can use this mental tool for great self-benefit. As have I. As can you. Not to mention you will be meeting new friends that share your dreams. It was a long and lonely journey for me. It doesn't have to be for you. That is the entire point of this blog. I hope that it will give you the strength and support you need to start living how you want, with people who it would be impossible not to have deep connections with, be it two friends who become like brothers, or a boy and a girl (personal preference, apologies) falling in love. Who says that's not possible? In the end, you do. And the key is just to do what you want. Like I said, we're here to help you overcome fear, and, overall, become a stronger person. And remember, always believe in yourself. The impossible is simply the improbable. Realize. Seize. Thrive. Repeat.
My name is David Rauenzahn. The point of this blog is simple. Grow, as a person, by conquering your fear. I have always lived my life cognizant of what I am most afraid of: not living, but surviving. Taking this life for granted is a travesty many of us abide by, unintentionally, if nothing else, for our reptilian brain only reacts as such. This is known as the Fight or Flight reaction. What if you could eventually become a person who faces their fear on a regular basis, not because you want to face that fear per se, but more that you want to achieve something for yourself, something only you can give yourself by triumphing over... you.
Comrades, think of this as a revolution of the self in reaction to a life that simply feels that it is not worth living sometimes. It feels as if death to the soul to become so empty and devoid of the beauties life has to offer. Imagine: taking your dreams by storm. Having the courage to face your fear, and never regret again. Loves lost would be forever found, opportunities never lost, no stone left unturned. That is how I will live. And I want you all to join me; got anything better to do?
Let's start of slow. You have to walk before you can run right? But you need just enough incentive, intesity, and frequency in order to make it effective, what you might call flexing your mind in order to create a paradigm shift, in order to change your perspective on life, and life itself. Start off by doing something once a week that scares the living shit out of you, whether it's asking that girl to dance, finally working up the courage to tell that friend that she is a beautiful person, one you cannot live without, or just seizing the day's adventure and seeing where it might take you. A similar concept to this is the acclaimed "Yes-man" technique portrayed by Jim Carrey's character in the movie of the same name.
Life is waiting to be lived my friends. Just have the courage to live it, and the confidence in a new day, a confidence in yourself to make your dreams your reality.
Never give up, never surrender.
Have the imagination to dream, and the strength of will to realize you are your own limits, you can be whomever, wherever, whatever you want, if only you take life by the horns.
I can't wait to hear your adventures. This is a support group if nothing else. We are a network of people who simply want the most in life, and at first, it may not be easy; it wasn't easy for me. I hit the wall time and time again. Eventually, I became so obsessed with it, I drove myself literally to insanity, and ended up in a mental institution. The root? My dissatisfaction with life. I could not bring myself to accept how pitiful life was, that there wasn't more to my life, that I wasn't being all I could be. I was hopeless, and even tried commiting suicide several times. I had no one to turn to because no one would understand. I honestly felt like I had lost my mind, and I was lost. End of story.
I don't know how, but I made it past that wall, only to realize that I was the one,\ who had set the bricks and mortar of my "wall" to begin with. I realized it was I who was making the choice not to live life, but instead play it safe, and never take chances. Never allowing self belief to enter my life, never feeling strong enough to take a leap of faith, if you will. Realize your dream, see your opportunity, make it a reality. Simple enough.
This is where this blog comes into play. I created this so anyone who feels they aren't getting what they want out of life (and I will admit, not everyone will go to some of the extreme measures other's will, but it can help them too; my best friend is an avid practice of this and, with a little more help and expination, I think he can use this mental tool for great self-benefit. As have I. As can you. Not to mention you will be meeting new friends that share your dreams. It was a long and lonely journey for me. It doesn't have to be for you. That is the entire point of this blog. I hope that it will give you the strength and support you need to start living how you want, with people who it would be impossible not to have deep connections with, be it two friends who become like brothers, or a boy and a girl (personal preference, apologies) falling in love. Who says that's not possible? In the end, you do. And the key is just to do what you want. Like I said, we're here to help you overcome fear, and, overall, become a stronger person. And remember, always believe in yourself. The impossible is simply the improbable. Realize. Seize. Thrive. Repeat.
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